A Word on Copyright
Journalism school has taught me a lot so far, and one point really applies here: The rules of copyright, specifically with photos.
Gone are the days (in my life at least) where copy-and-pasting photos from the Internet was deemed okay. I have now learned that technically, if you use them without permission, it’s copyright infringement.
Here at Elilai Petals, I did my best to always include a photo or two with each post. The Internet was usually my only resource as it wasn’t feasible to take my own photos all the time. Now I’ve realized I really should have contacted the owners of the websites and asked permission for their photos. Not just the simple, right-click, copy, paste, done.
At least, thank goodness, I made it a bit better by always putting a link to the source of the photo. So I wasn’t entirely infringing on their copyrights… Not entirely at least.
Anyway, as a journalist now (yes, our instructors recommend we call ourselves journalists, even if we’re technically students and aren’t working for anyone), it is my duty to adhere to all the rules and regulations that come with the job. So, I’ll make an effort to take all my own photos, or use other people’s photos with their permission.
The first step? Revamp the blog design and use a photo I have permission for, rather than the really good one I found online. Thanks to Katerina Sieg for her gorgeous chelilai flower photos, one of them now in the header!
The Feeling of Alone
It’s both a strange and wonderful feeling – the feeling of Alone.
At first it’s incredibly appealing – the idea of On My Own.
Nervous excitement precedes it, but you’re ready, you’ll be okay.
Though nothing can really prepare you, for the actual feeling, on the day.
The space is all yours, spread out, “make it mine”, but every now and then you trip.
You trip on the floors, of personal time, and your faith in yourself starts to rip.
All this space for just one (“it’s mine, just me”) can bring such absolute gain.
But the face of Alone, makes “mine” and “me” become words of pure, utter, pain.
You’re sad, but you smile, and there’s just a little fear, but you know it will all be alright.
You’re glad for a while, then darkness comes near, and you worry ’bout things in the night.
Though you forbid it, sleep will succeed, you’ll be dreaming all the way through.
In morning you’ll have made it, Alone will not lead, you are in charge of you.
A Final Grain of Sand
Caribbean heat dries sea salt onto my sun-bronzed skin. Miniscule crystals climb on top of each pore and cling to every hair. Wind chases its own tail around my limbs and past my ears. Atlantic waves rush up onto ancient sand. A barbecue fire gains strength behind me. My mind struggles to record and save all the data I’m observing. In exactly 1 week I’ll be on my way to the airport, and it will be months before I see, hear, taste, smell, or feel any of this again.
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Exactly 1 week later, I was on my way to the airport, on the twisting, turning, tummy-tormenting road that was unavoidable, should one want to travel on “de big airplanes”. After an hour in the car (in record time, I know my dad would like me to add), we stopped at a restaurant two minutes from the airport. I wobbled out onto my feet and waited for the queasyness to pass.
Then on to lunch and a squished-up, two-minute drive to the airport (someone else would be carsitting and drove us there, so there was an extra person now in the car). After an hour of rigmarole, we finally got to the gate and waited briefly to board.
This is it, this is it, goodbye to the tropics. On to Snow Country. Aboard the plane, “Take your seats, buckle up,”. “Stow any baggage in the overhead compartments.”
I cried over the last in-the-country text messages with the wonderful young man I was leaving behind. That made physically leaving the country the hardest. Saying goodbye to my family was in two weeks, in Snow Country, not now, not here. They were with me for longer. I don’t know if I could’ve handled saying goodbye to all of them at once.
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The tropics will be missed, but the snow is a welcome new novelty, though the cold will be hard to get used to. A month after that departure, I have since gotten settled in my new home. I’ve said goodbye to my family, which wasn’t easy. I’m in touch with them and the wonderful young man every day in some technological form. I’m making dinner and washing dishes and putting laundry on to wash. I’m managing. And so here the journey begins. The journey from sand, to snow…
Photo by author.
Confession
“Tomorrow is Confession. Be here on time. Everybody must go. Do you all remember what you have to say? Let’s review.”
My only knowledge of Confession was what I’d seen on TV, and my exposure to TV had been limited. I knew it was a Catholic thing to do, and I knew you did it to come clean of all the bad things you’d done. I knew you went into a wooden box and talked to the priest through a screen so he couldn’t see you, which I thought was a bit strange, and I knew the priest wasn’t allowed to tell anybody what you told him. I guess I knew a fair bit about it, but I had no idea how to actually do it.
Sister Mikaela (pronounced “Mih-guy-lah” in the Palauan accent) was telling us all about it in Grade 6. “Who can tell me why we go to Confession?” And some good Catholic answered, “So we can get forgiveness for our sins”. Sister Mikaela praised the correct student and then went on to go over the exact things to say when you get in the wooden box and when to make the sign of the cross. She made sure everyone did it perfectly. Just about all the kids in the class already understood this process and had only forgotten one or two steps. I was one of maybe five non-Catholic sixth graders, but I was the only non-religious student in the school.
My dad was brought up Catholic and my mum was brought up kind of Anglican, until her parents decided they’d had enough of church and all its accompaniments. I was brought up to appreciate and accept all religions, to be a kind, honest person, and to follow the Golden Rule (Do unto others as you would have them do unto you). I was encouraged to choose my own religion one day, if I so desired. I was exposed to the Bible and its stories, but I was never christened nor baptized, anointed nor blessed.
I had no problem with my upbringing or beliefs. I felt no need to conform to the specifications of one creed over another, and I knew that the most important thing was to strive to always be a good person. And bloody hell, I was 10 for goodness’ sake! How was I supposed to know who or what to believe in?!
Well, very few people understood this, and even less accepted it. I don’t know how many times classmates asked me, “What religion are you?” “Do you believe in God?” “Are you Christian?” “Why don’t you go to Church?” “What do you believe in?” I was made to feel very weird for not being strictly Catholic or Protestant or Seventh Day Adventist or something. So you can imagine my trepidation when I had to tell Sister Mikaela (a nun of all people) that I wasn’t Catholic and wasn’t sure if I should go to Confession. I didn’t think I’d be allowed in and thought for sure that if I did go, and the priest found out I wasn’t a member of his faith, that I’d be forever condemned and turned into a pillar of salt or something.
Well, Sister Mikaela took it fine and told me it was okay, I could just stay home. She gave me a toothy, betelnut-red smile and said, “Okay, Elilai.” She was the only teacher who ever called me Elilai. I liked her.
So to my amazement, I got out of Confession and I was still alive. I’d had terrible fears of being forced to go and making an absolute fool of myself. I didn’t know what to say, if I should pray there, sit, stand, or kneel. What if the priest told me to say or do something right then and there, and I had no idea what he meant? But, that didn’t happen. I was okay. I’d made it through (or should I say past) my first Catholic milestone.
Photo Credit: http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_Cu8pzmbnJlA/TEs6JOMWnfI/AAAAAAAAA_U/M1BblufGjao/s1600/confessional.jpg
Too Much Touch, Not Enough Play
Is it me, or are way too many players getting a bit too touchy in this year’s World Cup? Lately, I’m seeing just way too much grabbing, pulling, pushing, tripping, and elbowing! I thought these things weren’t allowed! Now, almost every team is doing it at some point. Why can’t they just play football? Stick to the sport! Rather than great footwork, so many players seem to be focused on yanking the shirts off their opponents, and there is more body checking in some of these matches than in a bloody hockey game!
Moreover, so many of these incidents go unnoticed and un-reprimanded by the refs! Then they dish out yellow cards for pure and obvious accidents. I just don’t get it. I think football should be about the sport, the footwork, the talent. Players should rely on their skills, not how well they can push or pull or punch someone else. What do you think? Express your thoughts with the poll below, and feel free to add comments!
Photo Courtesy of: http://sifranzaypinoy.files.wordpress.com/2010/01/2010-logo.jpg
Close Call at American Idol
Last night’s episode was shocking. Not only was one of the season’s worst contestants safe yet again, but one of the season’s best contestants got the least amount of votes!
How Tim Urban has managed to stay in the competition for so long, I really don’t know. He can sing okay-ish, but he’s got no charisma, no entertainment value. I can’t find anything interesting or captivating about him. But hey, that’s just my opinion. Maybe I just can’t see what so many voting Americans see.
I can deal with Tim sticking around though, not much I can do about it, since I can’t vote (living outside of the U.S.). But what’s really difficult, is seeing the people you love getting sent home. Michael Lynche has incredible talent. He’s one of the best this season, and I think one of the best out of all the seasons. It would have been ridiculous if the judges hadn’t saved him. Come on America! Get it right next time! This show is about singing talent, entertainment value. Just watch Michael perform. He’s got it all.
Personally, I think Michael is a great candidate for winner. He should be in the Final Three for sure. He’s a nice guy with a wife he seems to love dearly and a brand new baby. He loves singing and this show really means something to him. I think he really deserves it. And maybe his latest performance wasn’t his best, but you can bet he’s gonna bring it like never before after this. And I for one can’t wait to see what he can do.
And hey, now that the judges have used their save, two people have to go home next week. Maybe that means it’ll finally be time to say goodbye to Tim. =)
Photo Credits:
American Idol logo: http://www.duetsblog.com/uploads/image/american-idol-logo%281%29.jpg
Michael standing: http://www.aceshowbiz.com/images/news/00031784.jpg
Michael close-up: http://www.billboard.com/photos/stylus/105391-michael_lynche_american_idol_617_409.jpg
Sheepish and Sorry…
So I sign in to my WordPress account, for the first time in a few days, with my head bent low and my proverbial tail hanging ashamedly between my legs. I haven’t been blogging at the rate that I should be, and the statistics of my daily hits definitely show it.
The first tip most people give to bloggers for “how to increase blog traffic” and “how to make your blog a success” is: POST OFTEN. The first tip most people give to writers for “how to become successful” and “how to perfect your craft” is: WRITE EVERY DAY.
And here I am, failing at two of my most important roles.
I am a writer, and dream of being successful. I view this blog as the best way to get my voice heard by as many people as possible. But I’m having trouble sticking with it.
Being in the midst of the most important semester of my education so far is daunting, stressful, and time-consuming. The pressure is on to get top grades to seal the deal with my conditional college acceptance.
Attempting to find an apartment 2,315 miles away from my current location isn’t an easy task. Trying to convince landlords that I am a trustworthy tenant when they can’t look at my face is difficult too.
Figuring out how much my daily life is going to cost puts pressure on me (because I have no money) and my parents (who are trying to save it).
Pending conferences which will greatly enhance my prospects for a good journalism career require extra time spent on schoolwork to get ahead, so that I can attend them.
Writing every day, and moreover, polishing up posts which can be read by anyone in the world at any time, has been pushed to the bottom of the To-Do List. My role as a student must remain at the top.
So for letting down any regular readers, I am sorry. I will post new material as soon as I can. And to those who continue to stop by, thank you.
I have pages of ideas for posts, and I plan on bringing them to fruition ASAP. I take this blog very seriously, as I consider it a means to showcase my writing ability, not just some casual hobby.
I feel bad for putting my writing aside, but am trying to balance everything so that I can bring it back into the immediate picture. I will fight writer’s block and dig through myself until I find creativity, so that I can keep Elilai Petals alive and pinging.
Thank you. =)
Grouchy about the Oscars…

So it’s Oscar Night. All the celebs are dressed up in designer names, wearing jewelry worth millions, and posing for hundreds of picture-hungry photographers.
I think it’s ridiculous. All of it. Sure, these people deserve their accolades. However, I think their award ceremonies (mainly the bit leading up to them) have been blown way out of proportion. I mean, seriously, who gives a crap what they’re wearing? Why can’t they be allowed to just make their movies, dress nicely (not extravagantly), go accept their award, and be done with it? The running time of the televised awards night could be cut down immensely if these wannabe commentators stopped asking “What are you wearing?!” and got right down to business.
Think about the electricity, energy, and money that could be saved if they cut out the clothing chatter. And don’t get me started on how much money could be saved if such crazy amounts weren’t paid for the dresses, the tuxes, the bags, and the earrings.
I bid them all good luck. I just wish the media would focus more on their talent than on “who” they’re wearing, and how “hot or not” they look.
http://oscarramblings.files.wordpress.com/2009/02/oscars.jpg (Thanks for the pic!)
500 hits!
Hey readers,
Just checked the total number of hits Elilai Petals has gotten, and it’s currently at a bit over 500. I just wanted to say thank you to all the people who have stopped by and who continue to check for more posts.
I know 500 hits in one month is nothing to bloggers who get thousands of views every day, but I see it as a milestone. This blog means a lot to me and my writing career, and I’m doing my best to promote it. I’m hoping the exposure for my writing I gain through it will open many doors for me in the future.
Thanks again to you “veteran” readers for your support and comments, and to all you newcomers, thanks for stopping by! I welcome your feedback.
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